This time of year is always tough for me.
The end of the baseball season.

Last night the St Louis Cardinals won the 2011 World Series by defeating the Texas Rangers in 7.
The season has ended and I am now without baseball for several months.
Baseball has always been more than a sport. It was a connection to my family growing up. And remains an emotional connection to that past today.

It was something my Grandma and I shared at her kitchen table playing cards and listening to games on the radio.
Something my dad and I played together in the backyard when I was little. Something I wanted to do for a living until I was told “girls don’t play professional baseball”.
I saved for years (or it seemed that way for a kid) to buy a George Brett glove.
He was my hero. My dad used to play catch with me in the backyard after I bought that glove. Dad taught me how to hold the ball to throw a fastball and a curve and a slider. I could never master the knuckleball. I got good enough with the rest of the pitches to impress the local American Leagion coaches…the ones that told me I was better than the other pitchers who had tried out.
But I was a girl and couldn’t play.
My Grandmother and I would sit around her kitchen table drinking Cokes from glass bottles and playing “Flinch” or “Touring” while we listened to Denny Matthews call the Royals games on our local AM station.
When I got a little older and worked for that same station I would produce those same broadcasts. It was then I decided I wanted to be the play by play announcer for the Royals. Unfortunately Denny has stayed with the club so long I think it may be a little late! Plus this was back before there were any women even doing the sideline or anchor stuff for sports stations. The odds were stacked high against me.
I sat there with Grandma day after day during the summer. Listening to each call, listening to each game, listening to her slam her cards down when they made an error or the opposition scored we found something that went beyond the grandma/grandaughter connect to a bond formed by the love of a sport and a particular team.
She and I watched every All-Star game together. Sitting side by side in the recliners in her living room with those Cokes in bottles and popcorn she made on the stove in a pan with oil. When I went away to college I was unable to make it home one year to watch it with her. I called and we watched it together over the phone. That was years before free long distance on your cell and cost me a fortune. It’s a memory I wouldn’t trade for all the money in the world.
Every year my family would get tickets to go to a Royals game in KC. I chased George Brett around the mezzanine at Royals Stadium to get his autograph. I was almost too late to catch him that day. It’s a treasured momento I have framed and hung on my bedroom wall.
I accepted the job at KILT over a couple other offers I had at that time. Not just because it was a great station but because it was the only one in a city that had a major league baseball team. There’s not a game I go to where I don’t look up to heaven and smile telling Grandma I was at a game and wished she were with me.
Two summers ago a friend and I took a trip to KC to see the Astros play the Royals in interleague play. It was about 30 years since my last trip to Royals Stadium. Grandma had been with me that time.
We suffered through a cold and very damp rain delay before a huge rainbow appeared from one edge of the stadium to the other.

I knew the rainbow was sent from Grandma so she could be there with me again. I just knew it…
Baseball has a way of making me feel like that 11 year old calling out “Mr Brett! Mr Brett!” as he was walking away from the autograph table. The All Star Game every mid summer takes me back to those recliners in my grandmother’s living room. I have one of those recliners in my bedroom and often sit in it for the game. It still has the afgan on it my mother crocheted.

The end of the season brings all those memories to clarity. The feel of the Coke bottle in my hand, the sound of the cards being shuffled, the pop of the ball when I threw a good fastball into my dad’s glove in the backyard, the smells of the yard and the whoosh of the breeze coming through my grandma’s open kitchen window.
They were with me for the last seven months just like they were then…those sounds and smells and feelings. I didn’t really notice them when they happened then but they became part of me without my noticing.
Thank you, baseball. I’ll see you in the Spring and we’ll bring them all back out again.
Again next season I’ll share you with my Godson. Hopefully one day he’ll have memories like these that keep him close to me long after I am gone.